Status Update II

Greetings everyone. It’s been difficult to write this post, but just to be quick and clear: I’m taking a personal break from writing The Solstice War for a few months. I intend to return to the story, but I’ve been working on this for years and it’s gotten increasingly difficult for me mentally and I need a breath of fresh air. I’m going to write something different for a bit, something mostly self contained and much simpler than The Solstice War. It will hopefully still be interesting. Everything I write has similar themes.

The Solstice War is my cherished work; both I and many people cherish it. It’s been amazing having this much support for it. But it’s also been overwhelming. I’ve felt crushed both by my own ambitions, which I set extremely high when I began this project, and also by the expectations I cultivated for it. When I started the Solstice War I had all the free time in the world and I envisioned something grand and massive. But the reality of my life is, I have to work a day job and writing doesn’t come as easily as it used to after an 8-hour shift, you know? And people love it so much. For someone with a way bigger audience, maybe it’s easy to just “do what you want,” but for me, I still read every fan mail that tells me how much The Solstice War has meant to them. And it’s really hard for me to just do whatever after that: this feels like the community’s baby, not just mine.

So this decision is tough.

It’s been especially tense because it has been supported financially. There’s been so many times lately where I’ve been thinking that if I write this post, if I do this and take this break, I’ll lose money that I’ve been using to live. I hope that isn’t the case, but it’s always possible. However that’s not to cast aspersions on all of you. You all have been nothing short of amazing for me these past few years, and I know in turn I’ve been inconsistent a ton of the time. I’ve lost several Patrons over time because of this, and I have no defense for it. I apologize sincerely for all of it. I’ve tried to explain my circumstances, but at the end of the day, it’s on me.

However, this is just something I really have to do to get my head on straight. The Solstice War is important to me, and I want to be able to do things right. I want to be able to have fun and to have passion for it. I’ve been spinning my wheels lately, and it’s not been working. I hope that getting fresh inspiration and putting down some different words will help with this. When I’m reunited with the Solstice War I want it to be great.

Until then I’ll be running a Wounded Tyrants novella in place of The Solstice War for a bit. You’ll know when that stuff starts going up! There’ll be a new page Here.

I understand if you feel you can no longer support me or my projects based on this decision. If The Solstice War was all that was keeping you here, I fully understand and support whatever decision you make about your support. I humbly ask that you stick with me for a bit, wait and see what I have cooking and give it a read. Maybe you’ll enjoy it.

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